today is mother's day, i suppose to ring my mum and wish her happy mother's day. but i cant. because i know if i heard her voice,i will cry like a river,i dont want them know what happened to me, i dont want them worry about me and get upset like me.

 

sorry mum.

hey guys, do u know wat is the prisoner property bag? I HAVE ONE NOW!

 

its a plastic bag, the first line at the front is the prisoner name,the second line is custody refrence number.

 

when i arrived the police station, the officer took everything off me, everything! and asked all my personal informations, put them down in record of course. they asked me do i wanna a lawer or not, i thought i wasnt a criminal. i didnt do anything to agaisnt the british law,wat do i need a lawer for? so i refused him.after all that we asked me to took off all my jewlleries and put them in that PRISONER PROPERTY BAG! i was sent the cell with druger-dealers, drunk people and kind of...... for the whole night. i didnt sleep at all, is wasnt easy.

 

i have been crying and crying until i got really tired and no more tear can come out. and started to cry again after a few minutes. it was the biggest nightmare i have ever had. i felt that only because i was a foreigner. i dont know any english laws thats why they locked me up in the cell.

biggest embarrasment.

 

only because i wanted to be on my own,didnt wanna anybody to help me and the property doesnt belong to my parents,even some people was thinking to charge me,bring me to the court.what an excellent idea to get rid off someone you arent interested anymore.

 

what happened if he did, so they will force me to go back to china and cannot come back to this country anymore. EXCELLENT!

 

so i am a documented prisoner,how cool is that.

I was arrested by the police and been locked in the celln at the police station for the whole night. wat an anusual exprience! not many normal people would have happen to them,have been treat like some kind of criminal or delirator. all that just ruined my life, and it didnt get any better when i came out,ive been kicked out straight away from my flat by the lovely landloads,even they knew i got nowhere to go but they still did kick my ass out of theri place,very kind english gentlmen.one of them even watched me packing my stuff,i think they just dont wanna me to take anything which dosent belong to me,coz he said i was a thief and i was crazy. there is someone i should thank for put me into all that.

thank you so much for wat u did just let me realise whats all the bullshit about love.

 

maybe i was crazy,crazy enough to loved u that long and deep;crazy enough to do everything to be with u and impress u,no matter how much bloody and tears i lost,how deep the cut on my brace and in my heart.i know its all gone.u,ur tight stay together famliy,the love crap,the place we have been living last year and half,the memorise,the future plans.we both ripped all that off little by little.

 

and i couldnt picture myself when i was begging u to give another chance for me and this whole"relationship",i cried to death to begging u,how perthetic was that,never ever done that in my life and i lost all my pride just in 12 hours. at the police station and the place we've been living that long.

 

im just a stupid enmature 21 years old girl.there is no such fairy tail in this world,everyone just think about themselves.

 

never mind,i've been trough all that.i learned my lessons,i growed,i saw and thats enough.

 

just remind myself and other people who they think they are really in love with someone:there will always be something hidden in that relatioship which u cant see,just dont give in that much,always get ur own back-up.

 

really looking forward to my fresh start single life.wish i can have lots of fun.